decisions

im scared im not sure whats going to happen with us. i want him to follow his dreams. everything he wants to do is coming true. im not going to not let him do this. i dont care if it means i might or wont get to see him for awhile ill handle that. i want to be there for him i want him to be happy but i cant lose him i will not let him go

A view on guys

If there is one thing i know about guys its that they dont want to see the one they love hurt them but sometimes they should because something more special will come along and change their view on thimgs...not in a bad way but in a good way..guys need someone in their lives that love them for them...every flaw every mistake and every heart break...it takes a very special person to stay by someones side no matter what..

Love

Being in love doesn't mean you forget about everyone but the one you are with. Being in a realationship isn't about kissing huging...its about being with the one you love and loving them for them and not trying to change you...if they love you for you they really do love you but if they are trying to change you and you act like a different person you are the one thats changing and not because you want to because you want to keep them

Dreams

you the reason i stay awake but you're also the reason i fall asleep because
if i fall asleep morning will come sooner and i get to see you

Guard

im on the guard for the rest of  my life and its all bc of you i thought i could trust you
but now i see who i can really trust. all i know now is i have to hav my guard up and i dont know if ill be able to ever let it down.

something new???

sometimes i wonder what it would be like if he was still here
to hold me tight and to hear him sing my favorite lullaby 
i love it when he sings to me
his voice is sweet sounding it could put anyone to sleep
i miss him a lot and i often dream about him
i wish he was here the nights i can't sleep and just to hear him say i love you one more time

Fire and Ice

some people say the earth will end in fire some say in ice but to me either way i know where im going if i die
we dont know for sure which way the earth will end if it ends at all....live in the moment unless the moment is bad then live in your fantasy place
my fantasy place is where i can be alone and that nothing is bothering me its only me and my guitar
where the grass is green and the smells of sweet honey suckles bloom....
my fantasy place is where nothing can hurt you and nothing can go wrong
where you can stay up all night with out having to get in trouble where you can see the stars twinkling at you
my fantasy place is where i don't have to worry about anything

Wondering

i like him but im not sure if he likes me i want to find out but the again i dont want to know
you know?
i have a feeling that he does and he just isnt saying anything
i have no clue how to find out i want to just ask him straight up but then i dont want it to be all awkward  

MASK 2

when im around you i wear my mask
i dont feel safe,it feels like everyone is after me i cant tell you who or what i just  feel like everyone is after me and i wish i didnt feel this way
it seems like th only thing tht i s stopping thm for finding me is the mask when im not around you and when i am around you i dont have to wear my mask i know that you wont hurt me
i feel safe when im around you and i dont know why im just glad i have someone to trust and tell all me secrets to so thank you for beiong ther and never backing down i am very thankful for that

Mask

everyone has secrets some are bigger and some are smaller
mine is just a lie i live everyday
my life has become nothing but just a mask and i dont even know who i am anymore
i see my reflection and i dont even reconize it anymore i try to tell myself that its all a dream but i wake up and know that this has become my life
my life now has become a lie that i live in every moment of everyday
no one knows who i really am and now im starting to see that i dont know who i am anymore
i dont know the person i used to be only what i have become
i dont know who i am anymore and i dont know what i have become
i only know how i feel about you and thats all i know the mask hides alot that i should and need to know
you are the only one who sees through my mask and you see me for who i am and not what i have become and i am very thankful of that i wouldnt know what to do if i lost  you
you have been there for me evn when i didnt need you and you have alway stayed by my side through everything and never have backed down even when you could have
you have never seen my mask and i dont think you will
everyone else sees me mask and has always seen it but you have never seen it and i dont think you will ever see it and im very thankful that you cant

ET

ET works in different ways
if you meet someone with the same thing mood changes will happen 
you can  also have vision like dreams and you can see what is to happen
sometimes there will be bad feelings and the person you met will feel the
need to protect you, if you really know that person let them be there its better
to have someone help you through it
dont ever fight it
dont trust anyone who doesnt have the same gift or similar gift
its always better to have someone there for you

Broken

i believed you and trusted you and you let me down i now see who you really are and what you said was all lies and i should have  never believed you and now i dont want anything to do with you and im glad that you are out of my life for good i thought i could trust you...i was wrong i believed you..i shouldnt have
now my mask is back on and im building up my wall again and hoping that no one will hurt me like you did
i found someone new and seeing you again i can see that it hurts you but i just look at you and tell you that thats how i felt and now with him i dont have to be in the middle of lies and not know that i am and i can trust him fully and know that i can tell him anything and he wont turn around and put it all in a bunch of lies
 i know now that you are someone i couldnt and shouldnt have ever trusted you and believed you
now thanks to you im on the guard for the rest of my life and its all because of you
       

Sky

no matter what you can look up into the sky and it seems like you can get away from anything doesn't matter where you are or what you have on your mind you are able to look up into the sky and Forget about your troubles.....also knowing that friends are there to help you get through whatever is on your mind is knowing that they care.